Let not your heart be troubled. (You) trust God; trust also in me. John 14:1
I didn't mean that I wanted to learn HOW to trust God--I'm not that stupid. I just wanted to figure out what we mean when we use that phrase.
Does it mean that we trust God for a specific outcome? To heal our friend, for example, or to keep us safe? To answer our prayers the way we pray them?
Do we mean that, whatever happens, we can be confident that it was God's will (general, specific, permissive, whatever) and that he intends it for our good?
Are we trying to get ourselves to a point of surrender that can accept whatever comes? Do we trust that God will be present and grieve with us if what comes is evil and not good? When that happens, are we trusting that God will redeem it, eventually working it for our good?
I struggle with the concept of trust, in part, because I don't understand what exactly it means. What does it mean in the light of Dietrich Bonhoeffer and the Sudan and schizophrenia and, for God's sake, the Cross?
When you say, "I trust God," (if you have the audacity to say that), what do you mean? I really want to know.